Well, I am 100% off my anti-depressant and have never felt better! The TERRIBLE physical side effects are gone which is so nice but I feel like I could cry over anything. I tear up over anything, but I can handle being a little over emotional :)
Well Brian and I have officially been dating for 4 months today. counting the months seems so childish but oh well. He's been gone for 3 of those months and I really have NO idea how I am doing this right now. I am such a quality time person and ALL about spending time with my boyfriend and seeing him every day. ....well, thats just what I've been used to. All of my boyfriends/guys ive dated have been from Centerville or close proximity to the area. This time is so different. Not only is he on the other side of the world right now, 7 hours ahead of me, we still don't get to be together because hes stationed out in California. We really don't get to see each other and right now we hardly get to talk. Yes, long distance relationships are tough, but when they get tough and seem so hard, think about what other people are going through because of their significant other's job. I know I sure think of the couples going through a whole hell of a more difficult time than I am. I've chosen this though. I knew it'd be hard but I know he is worth it. Hell, what crazy person decides to get into a relationship with someone a month before they deploy overseas?! ...the same crazy person who bought a plane ticket and flew across the country to see that someone. :) Just be grateful for being able to text your significant other, talk on the phone without the call being dropped, not having to fight insane time differences or even just having the possibility to see them, because there are some of us who don't even get that.
Be grateful for the little things. thats what this relationship is teaching me and it's what I've needed to be taught. My generation takes SO much for granted and is very self-centered. We are stubborn and don't want to back down or compromise. Hell, look at facebook, its a site ALL about YOU. "what's on YOUR mind?" you get to post a picture of yourself...just another reason for us to stand in front of mirrors and take pictures of ourselves. I'm guilty of this selfishness too, I'm not saying I'm not, but what I am is aware of it.
